Hall-o-weenies :S

Well, I'm not shouting this to everyone out there, especially to some of my buddies who had such a great party, but I think Halloween is just an excuse for the gift shop or costume markets to earn extra money... First of all, it's not celebrated here in Malaysia and this bunch of people kept asking you out because it's Halloween, because it's Halloween, that's why, that's why, that's why... See? It's working! Clubs, shops, websites, commercials are making money from this! [Extra thoughts hidden]

Then again after all those bullshit thoughts, it got me... WHAT HAPPENED TO ME??? This is not me! The normal me would've went out with them and party, bursting his head of what to wear, thinking of making the best impression out of everyone, looking forward to meet everyone to get compliments that I look good... But now to me, all of these is just not important anymore. I'd rather sit home and watch the same boring old movies that I can memorize backwards, eat cup noodles and go to sleep early... I cannot get over the fact that I'm like an old man when I'm facing all these social things. I think they are unnecessary and a waste of money. But why? Why is this thought present? Where did that came from?

But then someone would throw this at my face: You are so not cool because you don't celebrate Halloween! In my head: You are so cool because you celebrate Halloween? Where's the point?

Then it hit me again. HOLIDAYS IS THE TIME FOR COMPLICATIONS? Then again, a lot of things are going on besides this little brain fart. Way beyond anything a teenager can comprehend, and that's the reason I'm not liking myself... [Private thought] I cannot believe I've turned into this person that I'm not! D:

Well, I'm going to concentrate on a few things from now on! Completing my holiday sketchbook, transcribing all music, Chinese Orchestra, reading books and refurbishing my room! By the way, I just finished with the planning, now I have to buy the furnitures. # For all of you out there who has little idea of interior design, WE ARE NOT INTERIOR DECORATORS! i.e. Buy furnitures from IKEA or AhLeong Perabot and then arrange it wherever looks nice. We deal with interior space planning, solving problems, bringing about a mood and ambience in a room with colour, lighting and openings. And we design our own furnitures :) #

p/s: Any thoughts where to earn extra money? :P

SyemurN